merchimerch | (no subject)

I'm going back to bed for a short hour. R and I fell asleep very early last night after an emotional day. I think this blood pressure/weight issue has left me a lot more raw than I was hoping it would. I am trying really hard to turn it into a positive thing, but it is very hard.

I woke up at 3 AM with my mind whirring. I got up to do the Uzbek homework I didn't get finished last night. I still have this article to turn in - I had hoped to get it to my advisor by Friday, but Friday was a day of turmoil from the doctors appointment. Hopefully I will finish it today and get it mailed off.

I go back to the doctors today for a blood pressure check, I will talk to her more about symptothermal birth control and what to use in the mean time before I can accurately track ovulation. I'm thinking of getting fitted for a diaphragm. I got fit for one a while ago, but didn't end up getting one because I ended up going back on hormonal birth control. Maybe I'm brainwashed, but I feel really trepidatious about the failure rate of anything but hormonal methods. I'm going to have to get over that if I am going to get off of them.