gruuuuuuumpy!

I'm in a sour mood. I don't want to be at work. I really resent that I am uber-educated and relatively qualified to do lots of stuff and yet I keep coming back to secretarial work to put food in my not insignificant belly. Now I realize why my boss at the box office in college never learned to type - so she wouldn't get stuck doing this! I know that my life wouldn't necessarily be better if I'd taken the TAship for the summer that I got offered 3 weeks after I took this internship, but I'd have more free time right now. I've already had the discussion with my advisor and my pseudo-advisor and I am happy with my decision - I know this will be better for me in the long run, but that doesn't stop the fact that I JUST DONT WANT TO BE A SECRETARY ANYMORE!

I'm also not sure how I'm going to get all the work done that I need to get done over the next couple months - I have a CD review to write and I need to get a conference paper written sooner rather than later, oh and plan a little trip to Uzbekistan (small potatoes) - I have a feeling that the conference in Bowling Green will creep up on me much faster than I want it to. Plus I need to figure out how get in with contacts at universities in the Pacific Northwest. I really want someone to make a job for me at Humboldt State, but they don't even keep a musicologist on staff, much less an ethnomusicologist. Still, I want them to create for me a tripartite tenure track position in the International Studies Dept, the Womens Studies Dept. and the Music Dept. I could coach chamber ensembles, teach a world music survey course, teach courses on Central Asia, and on gender, live in a cabin in the woods and stomp around Arcata.....life would be good. Alternately, I'd like Reed or U of Oregon in Eugene to decide that they neeeeeeeeeed me. I should figure out how to meet some of the department heads, get my resume in their hands or something. I want a job when I get out of here, I eventually want a job in a community that I am comfortable in.

And I am grumpy that R the new boy is not around. He has been busy and has lots of social obligations at the moment. I don't really resent that he has a date tonight - I'm really fine with him seeing others, I'm just grumpy that he's not around and has other people demanding his time in the short amounts of time that I can offer my time to him in my schedule. Oh well, I'm sure I wouldn't like him if he were beck and call boy, hanging on my everyword, (but there is a part of me that just wants a yes man at the moment). I'm just in a surly mood and am directing my resentment at him and his love life.

My tea bag this morning says: "Character is much easier kept than recovered" --Thomas Paine

volunteers for a sugar daddy needed, apply within.....

Waaaaah, Sevara Nazarkhan is on tour in the US and not anywhere near CA. Here are her tour dates:

June 11 Dallas, TX
June 12 Houston, TX
June 14 West Palm Beach, FL
June 16 Atlanta, GA
June 18 Boston, MA
June 20 Holmdel, NJ
June 21 Philadelphia, PA
June 22 Washington, D.C.
June 24 New York, NY
June 26 Milwaukee, WI
June 28 Tinley Park, IL
June 29 Detroit, MI
July 1 Columbus, OH
July 2 Indianapolis, IN

Anybody want to buy me tickets, of both the concert and plane varieties?

quizzie, thank you D!

You will be sucked dry by a leech. I'd stay away
from swimming holes, and stick to good old
cement. Even if it does hurt like hell when
your toe scrapes the bottom.


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ame_chan hair meme

Friday five

1. Is your hair naturally curly, wavy, or straight? Long or short?

Very very straight and long, mid-back range, inching toward my waist

2. How has your hair changed over your lifetime?

it grew, my mom cut it, I cried and grew it out again. My first year of college I cut it, I cried and grew it out again. I had a brief entanglement with purple in my late highschool/early college years

3. How do your normally wear your hair?

In a granny bun (high or low, depending on mood and grease factor) or a ponytail. I recently learned how to french braid my hair and do that when I have time (which is rarely at the moment). Rahvina used to put it in fabulous little braids but she just moved away (sniff). I try to wear it up so I don't pick at it (I tear my hear out under stress), but I take it down when I sleep

5. Ever had a hair disaster? What happened?

I had one perm in the 6th grade as a result of peer pressure - I looked like Shirley Temple....never never again.