wow I had a wonderful morning, but I'm a total flakeypuff

I really hope it isn't my stooooopidness over this new boy that's making me such a flake. I blew off a rehearsal today - it never even occurred to be that I had it, even though last Saturday we talked about next Saturday and I was all attentive and it was in my calendar and everything. I just didn't even think of it as the week was coming to a close and I didn't think of it as I was planning my weekend, which included me being all happy about giving daisy the car a break on Saturday. I was planning to go to Santa Barbara tomorrow, but I am not sure I can show my face up there now because the person I was going up to play music with is in the group I flaked on today. I know there are various reasons that I flaked - I'm getting into my summer schedule, and this group just switched from rehearsing every other Saturday to rehearsing *every* Saturday, and my new summer job at the bowl has me really not wanting to drive anymore, and when it comes down to it all I have been thinking about this week is what I am doing *next* weekend, namely flying up to Oakland to visit the new boy. My mind has been very focused on him lately which, for the most part, is a perfectly fine thing to do - he is wonderful and sweet and attractive and smitten with me, so of course he is a fabulous thing to fill my thoughts with. I just feel awful that I flaked this rehearsal (we have a concert in early august), and I really don't want to treat these people unprofessionally, especially the director and the percussionist that I go up to SB to play with.

On an up note, I went to see Charlie’s Angels II this morning with dcicuto which was very fun and full of hot chicks and explosions. Then I went to Ross and acquired new underwear for next weekend, and a fabulous little white dress to walk off the plane with and make the new boy melt his britches. Then I came home and got the bad phone call, and promptly practiced for half an hour out of guilt. Now I'm going to fill the rest of my day with Harry potter and video games and maybe make some homemade brownies.