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quick post because I'm running to the music of china's peripheries and the books still hasn't migrated down from NoCal so I'm going to be winging it in class again.

Skiied a second time right before getting on the plane. The conditions weren't quite as good, it was a little icy with death cookies on some parts of my favorite runs, but it was great to ski with my whole family. My little bro and mom left for swim practice at noon and then I got to ski for another 2 hours with my dad. It was nice to spend time with him, we are very close in a rather distant kind of way - can't really explain that one.

Then I got on the plane - sitting for hours did not do my thighs any good, and I found out after running to the gate to try to catch an earlier flight out of cincinatti that Delta has done away with standby and that I can get on the earlier flight only if I pay the $25 change fee. If I were richer an hour and a half of my time would be worth $25, but right now it isn't. So I waited, got into LA and my roommates picked me up after being searched and then I went home to a remarkably trashed room and the reality of having to get up at 5:45 the next morning - not fun.

But i got up and went to yoga this morning and feel much more relaxed even though I am completely unprepared for all 3 classes today.

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small victories - I found the PTE numbers for the class I'm TAing.

This does not make up for the fact that only half of the books that were left in the lab for overview for my seminar at 3 were left there and no signout sheet was present so noone can locate the others. So I'm only halfway prepared for the seminar.

And I can't seem to access the bloody course website for the class I'm TAing - I'm supposed to access the old stuff, edit it, put it back on the server and then tell the dept. secretary that it's ready to be up. I can't up load the old stuff and further, there is not index.htm, general.htm or anything that looks like it would be an opening page. I am confused and cranky.

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I'm kind of in a daze about how intense today was. I left for class this morning more unprepared than I have been ever as far as I can remember. And I got through it unscathed. Maybe I can make it through this program after all if I can fake my way through 2 seminars and TAing the film class. At some point I have to knuckle down and get to work though.

Green apple tea helps immensely - I'm going to bed. Tomorrow I start my stupid grant that's due in 10 days. I talked to Professor H. about it today, hoping to convince her that I really didn't need to write this grant. She said "You're just going to have to be miserable for the next 10 days and get it done - it's only 10 days, you can do it." She's right - but I feel like I've spent so much of my recent days on the brink of misery and total exhaustion - the thought of 10 days of grant hell right now really doesn't appeal. But I will do it - I always do it. Someday I will relinquish my post as high priestess of the stress monkeys, but not this week.