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Yesterday's lesson was kind of rough. Malika opa wants me to be able to sing all the pieces I'm learning from the vocal maqom, since it will help me remember them. However, she does not want me to sing them like a silly American girl. She spent the majority of my last lesson coaching me on how to sing the vowel "o" which is mostly like an o+a, instead of normal "oh"sounding *o* which is like the Uzbek letter *o'.* She also told me not to sing through my nose, to sing in my throat and mouth and belly the whole time. I was miserable. I am not a singer. I had a fine voice that got me through highschool and I have excellent pitch matching skills, even the for the quartertones that show up in Uzbek music. I am not a vocalist! I am not a vocalist in American culture and certainly not one in Uzbek culture and it is really frusterating to be trying to learn that particular skill when learning the fricking music is hard enough.

To top that all off, I didn't get any new material yesterday. We went over the "ouge" portion of the song I'm working on and played throught he 2 vocal pieces in the cycle and that was it. It made me feel so frusterated and ashamed that because of my lack of vocal ability I lost a chance to start Kashgarcha Savti Kalon.

And to top it all off, it looks like my cycle is going to be a few days short this month ( Read more... )