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[merchimerch]

Well shit. I just got my first rejection letter for Dissertation Year fellowship grants. It was from the Spencer Foundation, and I didn't even make the semifinals. Of course the fellowship is for education Ph.D.s and my work is only somewhat relevant, but I had to try for it. The form email was well worded, but as always still makes me feel like shit. I'm so scared about not getting funding for next year, I don't know what to do.