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[merchimerch]

Well shit. I just got my first rejection letter for Dissertation Year fellowship grants. It was from the Spencer Foundation, and I didn't even make the semifinals. Of course the fellowship is for education Ph.D.s and my work is only somewhat relevant, but I had to try for it. The form email was well worded, but as always still makes me feel like shit. I'm so scared about not getting funding for next year, I don't know what to do.

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[iyindo.livejournal.com]

don't panic... you knew that this was one of those "I'm only partially relevant" types of deals. don't sweat it. they probably just gave the grant to someone who was an Education Ph.D. keep hope alive. you haven't heard from the ones you're more directy in line with. there's no sense in panicking just yet. try to have faith and wait to panic if nothing pans out. right now, there are still options.

[fnordelissa.livejournal.com]

well said!

don't worry, merchimerch, it'll be all right. with all your field experience and awesome dutar skills, I know some money will come your way. I'd give you a grant!

[merchimerch.livejournal.com]

thanks hon, that's pretty much what R just said. I just want to know the answer now. If I have to take loans and find jobs and go crazy to get through next year I want to know so I can start planning. I know its not practical and that everything will become clear in the next two months, but I just want to feel like I am steadily progressing toward my goals of Ph.D., job at U., babies.