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Mar. 6th, 2005 12:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
merchimerchI'm having an application dilemma. I'm applying for the UCLA diss year fellowship at the moment and am feeling blocked and cranky about the personal statements. I've looked at other personal statements I've written for grants and none of them really seem to fit. What UCLA wants to know in my statement is basically who I am, what my career goals are (academic and non-academic), why I deserve their money and how I can guarantee them that I'll finish in time.
That last one is a sticky one. The truth is that I know I will finish by the end of next summer come hell or high water because I want babies. I have the Uzbekistan-induced baby fever, I know, but I also just want kids and always have. I want kids while I'm still young enough to enjoy them. I am not stupid or masochistic enough to try preggo and gradschool together in one monstrous stress ball sundae, so I have to get out of grad school and get a job. The way out of grad school for me is not attrition. I need to finish and find a job so I can have babies. I'm feeling a bit burnt on my research and the whole funding fandango and I really want as little to do with grad school as possible anymore. I'm ready to be done and move on to the next thing. R and I have set Fall 2006 as our TTC date and I plan to stick to it. The only thing standing in our way right now is my dissertation. I want in overwith as soon as possible. I'm starting to care less and less if it is even good, I just want it done. I want babies.
I'm not sure if I should try to find a gentle and PC way of putting this in my app. I'm not sure if it will hurt or help. It feels to me like a good guarantee of why I will finish, but I'm not sure that review committee folks will read it the same way. What do you guys think?
That last one is a sticky one. The truth is that I know I will finish by the end of next summer come hell or high water because I want babies. I have the Uzbekistan-induced baby fever, I know, but I also just want kids and always have. I want kids while I'm still young enough to enjoy them. I am not stupid or masochistic enough to try preggo and gradschool together in one monstrous stress ball sundae, so I have to get out of grad school and get a job. The way out of grad school for me is not attrition. I need to finish and find a job so I can have babies. I'm feeling a bit burnt on my research and the whole funding fandango and I really want as little to do with grad school as possible anymore. I'm ready to be done and move on to the next thing. R and I have set Fall 2006 as our TTC date and I plan to stick to it. The only thing standing in our way right now is my dissertation. I want in overwith as soon as possible. I'm starting to care less and less if it is even good, I just want it done. I want babies.
I'm not sure if I should try to find a gentle and PC way of putting this in my app. I'm not sure if it will hurt or help. It feels to me like a good guarantee of why I will finish, but I'm not sure that review committee folks will read it the same way. What do you guys think?
