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And another melt down and narcoleptic fit last night.....not quite sure what to do. For the most part I feel okay about my life and I recognize how blessed and fortunate I am. In the middle of my meltdown I even said this to R - I don't actually hate my life, I love my life, I just don't feel like I'm up to it right now. R is amazingly good at dealing with my emotional crap and reassuring me that I have his unconditional love and support, and putting me to bed for another round of narcolepsy. And I do feel better this morning - I always feel better after sleeping for 8-10 hours. But I feel like I shouldn't have to weep and sleep in order to function. I am accustomed to functioning on 6 hours of sleep on the weekdays and working for a couple hours in the evening - this no longer seems possible.

Anyway I think I got good news in my inbox this morning - the woman who runs the advanced Uzbek program at U of Washington said she'd be so pleased to have me in the program - which is great news, but she didn't mention anything specific about the fellowship which I was specifically applying for, so I hestiate to say that I'll be packing my bags for soggy Seattle just yet.